Kristal

This site is about my experience with cervical dysplasia, as well as anything else I might feel like discussing!

Confusion

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I apologize for being a bit silent recently, just had a lot on my mind since my doctor’s appointment last Wednesday.  I’ve been left with a lot of confusion, as it seems my medical team doesn’t really know what to do or think.  I wonder if a lot of women in my situation feel the same way?  That no matter how helpful and proactive the doctors are, that really they are just being reactive, and have no idea how best to treat women with cervical dysplasia or cancer.  It seems that we have all this knowledge from pap smears and HPV tests, but that they aren’t always sure what to do with it, or why some cases improve, while others worsen, and no one seems to really be pursuing this area of research.  Oddly enough,  I have been given the option (in the future) that if I feel I can’t handle this situation, the future appointments and invasive tests, that I would be allowed to pursue a partial/total hysterectomy…..and that seems worrisome too…that I can choose such a radical option (unless it is chosen for me earlier).  I still don’t know if I want kids, and my doctor wants me to wait as I am young to make such radical decisions. I’ll speak more on this soon, but I didn’t want people to think I had stopped blogging 🙂  

Thanks for listening, and remember ladies, book that pap!

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2 thoughts on “Confusion

  1. For what it’s worth, the total hysterectomy I had was very manageable, and the recovery quite good. The kids question is hard, but what helped me was to realize that I was thinking about hypothetical children. I think I’m a bit older than you, so for me, the hypothetical children would become and more and more hypothetical the older I got. And as I have discovered, there is a vast quantity of other people’s children to love and spoil.

    Not to minimize how difficult a decision it is, of course. But if you are thinking about going that route and want to talk, I’m around. 🙂

    • Thanks Heather 🙂 I appreciate that, talking with people who have gone through similar experiences has really helped me, and I know where to find you if I need it. I think I’m pretty convinced I don’t want them, but I like to second guess myself.
      Oh and I might shock you, I’m a little older than I am told I look, I’m pushing 36 next month 🙂

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